learning my worth...

Time to go, time to see, time to be and be all of me.
To take the jump, take the leap, into the world of responsibility.
Face me fears, face me foes, face my joys and woe's.
Here I am, still here, ready to be, become me. I want to fly, that i really what i want to do, fly fly away to the moon. to heaven, to the clouds, to praise the Lord. I shall praise Him forever more.
And but still, I am faced with me, faced with my reality and what I want it to be. I barter, I ask, we beg the Lord to give us what we want, then some more. So, now is the time to be true and face myself, allow myself to be new. Not less than my worth, nor more, but I ask the Lord to give me only my score.

Proverbs 30:7-9
Two things I ask of You;
deny them not to me before I die:
Remove far from me falsehood and lying;
give me neither poverty nor riches;
feed me with the food that is needful for me,
lest I be full and deny You
and say, "Who is the Lord?"
or lest I be poor and steal
and profane the name of my God.

Psalm 55:5-8, 12-14
Fear and trembling come upon me, and horror overwhelms me.
And I say, "Oh, that I had wings like a dove! I would fly away and be at rest; yes, I would wander far away; I would lodge in the wilderness;
I would hurry to find a shelter from the raging wind and tempest."
For it is not an enemy who taunts me-- then I could bear it; it is not an adversary who deals insolently with me-- then I could hide from him.
But it is you, a man, my equal, my companion, my familiar friend, [me].
We used to take sweet counsel together; within God's house we walked in the throng.

Are we to ignore ourselves? and that life be all about Others? I do not have thoughts of suicide at all, but they happen because people only think about themselves, and see only the negative and hopeless of life in our own hands. So, I learn, and assume, there must must must be a balance between me and you, between self and partner, me and consideration for others.
I have not wanted to know me, to leave space for the others I left out. Oh, savior within me, must save me too?!?! Yeah, I guess I can't forget about me either, for the greatest commandment in the Word of God is to first love Him, then love others as we love ourselves -so that means we must love ourselves, too! wow!! :)

wow, sometimes I am afraid to learn, because sometimes what I learn is wrong!!! so is it better to live on what is first in our hearts and feelings, or new learnings and trusting they are right?!? yeah... :) no matter what, "today is still a good day."