for i deserve no other than to be whole. to be a blessing, to see the goods, even when i don't understand control. God help me, burden me for righteousness, i want to be Gold. Help me, Lord to be reminded to See and Look for the Good in things even when it seems untold. Even when I am confused and don't understand the Why. Remind that, "dear, there is Good there -humans just do not see. For put on your spiritual eyes and remember there is Joy to BE! Remember that humans do not understand and they get frustrated, but you, my dear, will remember, that I AM there. I know what goes on and why, you just hold your tongue and look for the Good in why." AM-en.