A Really Strange thing happened today...

So, I went to wamu to apply for a credit card. I don't have one, never have. I don't want one -i just don't care that much about money. But I hear these things like, "it is good to have one" to buy homes and stuff with. i am so sick of this. i feel so weird right now...

So, i went in in faith, that i could get one, and plus, understand all the terrible "terms and conditions." i hate these, obviously. I really was wanting to understand them. so, i went in asking questions. Maybe I asked too many (which, I know for sure is never a bad thing). I wanted to get to the bottom of it, which, in reality, is hell.

This is how it went: I came in, the lady was nice, blonde, I felt like I could relate. She asked me questions, showed me her screen and updated my current account information. Then she started "applying" and setting me up for a credit card. During this process, the one of the update screens she was on all of the sudden dissapeared. She found it, thinking that was weird. Once we finished that first part, and needed to move onto the next, the server stopped working! I was like wow, okay. So, eerrrr... I am just soo frustrated.

She was frustrated too. And they ended up telling me that I wasn't approved. i was like, What?? Why? And they are going to Mail it to me. What?!?!????
I am so frustrated.

Why did this happen this way?

Maybe -and I sure it was for my Good.


I was asked recently if I am afraid to make money. No, I am not afraid to make money. I hate money, is the deal.
It is sickening.

We are supposed to be good stewards of what we have. Have money, that is fine. But the Word says, that we can either Love God, or money, but not both. I. hate. money. (Matthew 6:24).


If money is your god, then you don't know love and simply use people and the world for your own gain and will ultimately perish. Vanity.

I. hate. money.

Put me out in a forest somewhere, and I'll be happy. I SOOO wish this world was based on love and giving, not gain and money. Yuck. And it will be one day. Jesus will come back and reign, it is a fact.


NOthing can stand against God. No thing. Nothing.
God has His chosen people, the Israelites.
The War will end. The Palestinians will be comquered. It is a scary deal. And there is no peace until the End of it. amen.


There is a difference between like and love.
You reflect a person you like.
You are willing to discipline a person you love.

That is why God can't be around some people, because He loves them tooo much. He does not like what they are doing... it is for their good, until they Seee.

Right after I got into my car after wamu, a song played from my cd: one of my favorites:
it started up saying,

"frustration in the air, people who don't care, well it's gonna get you down,
you'll fall, yes you will hit a wall
but get back on your feet
and you'll be stronger and smarter
and i know, becuase i've been there before
knocking down the doors of
REJECTION,
REJECTION,
won't take NO for an answer
and you'll see,
cuase if it's meant to be, nothing can compare to deserving your dream.

It's amazing, it's amazing, all that You can do...
it's amazing, makes my heart sing.
"
Jem.
ah..