Time flys.

and i'm not really having fun... ??
It has been one year today that I graduated from college.
and what have I done?
Gone through a whirlwind so it seems.
"What are your goals in life right now?" someone asked me recently. "uh... idk," i said. still stunned, i really don't know where I am going. On the outside, i could be labeled as a loser, but I know there is no such thing.
I know jewels are buried inside of me right now.
I see them as covered up by "life" -things in life I have going on.
Maybe I feel a bit stuck, well actually i finally feel like i am where i am supposed to be, which is a good thing, but now getting through to the next place is where i am at.
1) i don't know where that is
and 2) i barely even know what is going on here! mainly, i don't know what the next big move in my life is going to be. and maybe i don't need to know. which is fine. but i need to find how to be happy where i am again. to brush off habits i have picked up along the way, but find my confidence and ground again in who I am. It is like I have lost some of that part of me. and maybe to gain a different one back, idk.

It is like I am building a new building -or being remodeled. and it looks kinda ugly right now (to me).
but day by day
i walk away
knowing i am okay
or at least will be one day.
i haven't rhymed in a while.
no tunes to carry out
my heart hasn't sang in a while
it feels good when it does.

hang on, you'll get through, dear.
I smile because it feels good.
:)
but there are still tears